Pacing

Pace around the apartment

Back and forth

That’s what you do

When your heart won’t stop

I see the animals in the zoo

They pace

Back and forth

On the same path, against

The glass, you wait because

They’ll come around once more

Back and forth

Alone.  Alone is good

Back and forth

You can let it all out

You can mumble, grumble, growl

An animal back and forth

Each beat a footprint

How many are left?

Visitors are of no interest

Heart races and we make paces

People’s faces in frames encased pressed to the glass

Back and forth

How long will this last

Back and forth

How long can this last

When you give up or lose meaning

Not much to do

When you grow up with the goal

That you outgrew

You end up pacing, waiting for the Hand

Back and forth

That may or may not feed you

Basic instinct keeps the body alive

Animal dead inside

Erasing

Back and forth

While pacing

Back and forth

Erasing

Back and forth

While pacing

Back and forth

A Tree

I am a tree now

I let the seasons dress me

I do not bother with the weather

My shade is forever

I listen without speaking

I understand without moving

Completely naked I stand

I have no need to move

I have no where to go

Do I know much?

Do I have fruit?

No, I have nothing

I bend and sway

So easily chopped away

I don't hide or turn

I take in all that is rejected

Time slips through me

Ages me with growth

Do not ask me for what I don't possess

I let you do as you please

For why would you listen

Or have mercy

Or try to reason

With a tree?

Just a seed once

So much potential to match

Towering over me

They smiled and encouraged

I wasn’t just a tree

I was progressing, on the move

I was leaving

I will laugh at the mountains

I will tickle the clouds

But that is not how it turned out

No need for thanks or apologies

I will continue

With or without you

I am just a tree

Nothing bothers me
                                           -Quasimodo

All is Gone but Now

I

What is

What are

To trust the space

Between one’s ears

Think therefore am, no

For thoughts were not given but received

Born of environment

The fear has brought

Looming presence dominates

A stranger’s sermon

Belief a teddy bear

From Santa

Discovery murders
Irreversibility

Deal with the terminal case

Of the human race

Nothing to hold

Infinity forward and behind

One point of one pointless existence

One moment to enjoy of nothing

All is gone but now

All is gone but now

Pain grows deep as enjoyment is indulged

Love risks high stakes

One throw of the dice

No justice
Survival a burden
No guilt can outweigh

Thoughts are borrowed

Pay back with interest

The soul is a relic

Time is inconsiderate

There is not grey, only black
The mind a traitor
All is betrayed, heart throbs in agony
Self-destruction diagnosed
No virus, no plague, no hope

Cry, cry into that disgusting night, my love

Love dies like the rest
Dry your tears with acceptance
Embrace it!

What am
The mistake of my fathers

Only what you think I am

I am

Not

                                                  -Quasimodo

Will to Remember

Together for eternity

Life times have passed since we parted

Only an hour ago

She was in my arms

She never was here

Consumed by her presence

All things were clear

Everything working systematically

Forgetting the shadows

How could I have been so careless…

How ignorant!

The light gone and the path turned

To darkness

Can she feel the same?

Too young

The will to remember

Never dominates the present

Now is emotion

Now is feeling

Plagued by what has or should have been

All was forgetting

So much pain

So much deception

The future should be forgotten

Exile the past from consciousness

Life is draining under glass

Right under the nose!

To touch, just a brief brush

With unbridled, unhindered and pure

Happiness

What dreams are made of

Held in the hands

Forgotten! How they have forgotten…

Remembered only by those to have it taken

Forget or remember

Heaven or hell

All the same, all the same
The horror, the horror

                                                -Quasimodo

Between two Worlds

I live between two worlds

One with life

And one with black

One has such joy and hope

The other cannot understand such concepts

I wake with eyelids heavy from keeping the moment longer

I wake with a gasp that I’m still on this planet

I eat with such speed, I hunger for more

I don’t want to even touch such requirements

The sky is so blue and the night so deep

The grave is so cozy and the grass so neat

Toys of trains, colors of wax

Black and white pixels, Wi-Fi news

Unending discoveries

Meaningless dialogue

Lessons of truth

Corporate confusion

Meaning overwhelmed

Emptiness infinite

We dream

I nightmare
Adult and Child

I tire of this limbo

Stuck between two worlds is no fun

I can’t belong to one

But can’t leave the other

                          -Quasimodo